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Poetry

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My Home is where my hearth is
so i need to find home to my hearth or i fear that pain will never seize
the Loneliness that once was my sanctuary i fear has now turn to my prison
in this the glass prison that walls follow me anywhere i go,
it's icy walls are hard around me and i need to give my everything to break free or the ice will froze once again
because in here nothing matters, in here i can never learn to care about myself, In here i just wait until my time is over
in here where i once was save from pain, in here where i can't no longer find relive for it
i think i may waste all those years in here, they weren't worth of what i gain, i may had spend too long in the darkness in the warmth of my tears
things how they are now can't go on like this much longer, because i feel like it has took to great toll to my mental health

i love my art and my will to wanting to master this wills me at feeling of purpose, how bad i am at my drawing but truth is i longest time didn't take art serioslly cause i was shamed of my tastes, of my art, and myself

opening the DA to do art has opened new world around me of lovely community i adore 

i know how stupid idea of doing perverted art at online (that is most part has been just averge) has been so big deal to me but i serioslly love you all that are in way as twisted than i am, or even more, please keep embrace this gift and don't shame away form it

and in away i feel that my hearth is here, but i know that i need more for sake of myself
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learning to live

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i want to talk shortly about person that really made my childhood to little hell, my step father,

he was kinda person who constanlly blame his problems to everyone around him, was constanly moking his family, never admitted that he may had done something wrong, and younger there was conctant feeling of vilence at home as he conctanlly trheated beat me and my sister at his belt as he had assaulted my sister multiple times,

and as i got older and i learned to reason with him and win at his stupid arguments he turned to chidhiss man chid that was saying that i was ''always so fucking smart'', and if i ever needed to say sorry to him i would be sure that this wasn't enought but i would get salted at my wrong doings next hour or so

and as i and my mom have moved to away from him i can be sure that i don't get anything at that home even if he has too many of that item and i would have none,, but i would need to buy all by myself as good similar items are rotting there away at completelly unused

i couldn't be open when i lived with him and i learned kept all by myself cause i didn't wanted to he have excuse to trhow me away of my home like he time to time threting to do so,

but as i have moved away i feel like i can try be better person now,

if i make mistake i hope that i can be able to admit it, own it, and make myself better

i hope that i can learn to be open how i feel and not keep it all in

i hope that i can learn to love myself and not being track down by person that constanlly remainds me all the things he have pay me and i should be cratefull for it as he constanlly kept drowing me and my loved family members

i try to become best version of myself as i can

and most of all i hope that i never be like him
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(closed) steam keys

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Huniepop by Ekkonshon

School by Ekkonshon
i have keys to Huniepop and A Magical High School Girl laying around, Leave i wanna them comment here or contact me via discord and i give them away tho who ever, 
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Bad Steam Key Giveaway

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I bought visual novel bundle at Manga gamer games and it had games that i already own so i do a Bad Steam key giveaway to my watchers, only one game per user (assuming that people want these)and if u descripte why do you wanna game at question your chances to get the key are a higher than person who didn't

 give away 1
If My Heart Had Wings
Kuvahaun tulos haulle if my heart had wings
this one is gone, 

give away 2
A Kiss For the Petals - Remembering How We Met
Kuvahaun tulos haulle A Kiss For the Petals - Remembering How We Met
Love is Over

Give away 3
Princess Evangile All Ages Version
Aiheeseen liittyvä kuva
forever lost

i gived away all my keys, But if u feel like you may wanna have these games Check humble bundle that ends 27, of december, i bought them at 11$ and they are realy worth of their money

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spear love, not a autizmretmerbrteassan

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here is a bunch of lovely things that say love and stuff that brings smile to my face, don't spear autizmretmerbrteahiho
Kuvahaun tulos haulle kittensKuvahaun tulos haulle heart chocolate
Mic005b by Ekkonshon

Kuvahaun tulos haulle inarin järviKuvahaun tulos haulle frieza dragon ball super episode 95Aussie-style-beef-and-salad-tacos-86525-1 by Ekkonshon



Grisaia no Yuukan 001 by Ekkonshon
Antidepressants Featured by EkkonshonZzz by Ekkonshon81a20b2286a2f0fe6274156c022e42d7--grisaia-fruit by Ekkonshon




no that we are all learned something about love and things so end the war and all those bad things that makes money to our click bait newsworks and share some love,, but not too much of it, you sicko




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